REBORN

how many deaths does it take in this lifetime
to finally be reborn?
my process has been endless.
i seek the final vision.
death and liberation is the last.
maybe it is eternal sleep, this liberation.
until then it is death and vision,
death and vision,
death and vision,
ad infinitum.
and there is pain along the way.
less in the beginning,
more at the end.
but wisdom makes the pain more tolerable...
that and practice, and death and vision.
so i wait to be reborn,
in finality...
and along the way,
i remember the early visions
and how they guided me to the now.